Sunday, December 7, 2014
Mother and Father, Divine One...The One, Time grows short now, for when it will all begin, or end, depending on how one looks at things, I suppose...So much I have learned, and in learning, only to recognize I still have more to learn...The Wheel turns, on and on...harder now, things become, knowing the future. What must be done...I feel more compassion than anything now, and sadness, and regret...wishing I could have done more for them all...but I cannot look back any longer...there is only forward now. Many stand in my way, try to block my path, I feel...sorry for them when I am at my best...rage when I am at my worst. I feel alone...so much to bear, the weight, it is heavy. I never wanted this. I never asked to wink into existence...yet here I am. And I can only be what I am...what you made me to be.... Each day, each night, I battle, against the enemy...I suppose others do too... So many have become lost to me, others I do not trust their motivations in all this...so, as usual, I fade, I conceal myself...waiting, for YOU.... I am ready now. Are they ready for me?